i dont know what happiness is until know everything seems upside down since months ago.i used to almost have a perfect life,a life that i always wanted.
but 1 crucial result ruined everything and here i am now .
the saddest thing isnt because i cudnt reach ‘that’ dreams but every aspects of my life are becoming nightmare.
noone reliable :( none of them even understand.they dont understand what ive been through and seems like everything i do are wrong.
noone ever convinced me that everything will be okay.they always tell me that they will hear all my stories.i once tell them how i feel,but not even a single encouraging word said.they were angry ,and i ended up crying.
i am 17 and need support from anybody besides me.not curse words or the intimidating one :(
i feel like a trash now,nobody likes me yeah all of them prolly hate me.
its okay we were born alone and will die alone too
but still,i see ppl with fabulous perfect life and i want it too.i need people who understand me without being angry and can make me calm ,whenever.
will i find that kind of person?time will answer.as for now i just wanna say that im dissapointed,lonely and feels like noone respect me like they used to do.
sorry for my bad english you may dont want to know another sad story abt english for me :(
i suffer,a lot.i cant yell or slam the door .silence doesnt work ,that way just make them angry and you wont belive who are ‘them’ refers in this story .
bye,have a nice life all :) :(
